wait

 penned sometime in 2007.

they told me to wait.

and i sat

twiddling my fingers,

rolling my eyes,

resisting their voices

ringing true in my head.

i couldn't take anymore, so

i stood and fought,

forced the tides to turn

for me, myself, and my

restless mind.

but my soul was never

satisfied...i kept fighting,

sacrificing sense to appease it.

soon, there stood a hole

at the bottom of my heart.

as i collapsed, weak from

a war but wearing of warnings,

that incessant voice from

above and inside

whispered one word:

"WAIT."

unclenching my fists,

willing myself to be still,

i succumbed to the word

that has never left,

but always waited for me--

the one i ignored in the begininng.

now i feel my strength returning,

i see a warm horizon that i

never thought i'd see.

fate has forgiven my

failure to follow

the faithful voice.

i shall wait

for the sun to rise...

instead of forcing it to myself.